thoughts

so its been a while since i have thrown my personal opinions and thoughts at your face. i just reread all of them and it seems as if im very opinionated and angry but this is not the case. i am actually one of the happiest people alive and i am opinionated but not to the point of being willing to argue over everything. my deepest and most secret things for me are what make me happy its hard for me to trust people (so ill trust the whole world and write a blog on the internet !) i quite enjoy little things and basic things some examples. i like children just how happy and smart they are they think with their eyes and are so capable of trust. its because i envy children that i like them so much. also animals are on my top list i believe its true that they have a sense of people and what their intentions are. i like how they have no worries all they need is to eat and sleep nothing more they can have relationships and stuff but all they do is eat and ssleep its fantastic well also they have sex which is well haha nobody would complain about that. i love to think which is an odd statement i feel. im so proud of that last sentence im just going to break it down a bit love is a feeling/ thinking is logical / feelings sometimes arent logical/ which is why its odd to say/ but i only felt its odd which does not in fact make it illogical haha

anyways thinking is fantastic i have friends who know me as a stupid sex crazy manwhore, i also have friends who see nothing but a loving caring wonderful man who can accomplish and do anything, i have friends who think im a slacker and just live carefree. well i am all of these things and also none of them ofcourse if i chose which i wanted everyone to see me as it would be the deemed more positive you know happy fun smart these types of things but i believe that im able to pull off all of my different personalities and maintain myself as one human being is because of my belief in balance. now balance is a huge word to me it describes how i feel on almost every subject. if something is out of balance it needs to be fixed unless it is something that fluctuates in and out of balance. an easy way to explain is with deer and wolves you learn this at a young age that if there is two wolves and ten deer then naturally the wolves will prosper and then deer will be in short supply and thats an example of something that will fluctuate something that doesnt would be like carbon dioxide you need exactly one carbon and two dioxide to have carbon dioxide .......ok its a bad example but you get whaat im saying its when you need exact amounts or else there is a problem